Crickets...and Revelation.

So, I go out on my fifth date with AT and it was a bit awkward. He is very intelligent, reads history books as a hobby, doesn't own a television which I think is great. He also watches documentaries and let me tell you his intelligence is really sexy but I feel like we don't have much in common. We had dinner and talked a bit about what he does for fun, hang out with his buddies and plays leader of the world with a life size map at his apartment which is completely nerdy and adorable at the same time :). I feel like he expects me to be somewhat on the same level when it comes to talking about politics and history and I for one haven't cracked a history book since junior college.

So we ended the date with a great kiss. We're great at kissing :) but that was a week and half ago and I haven't heard from him. So I'm not sure what our status is. I have a feeling he will probably text me sometime in the coming weeks which is cool. I honesty am not looking for a husband since I have dated since Y2K so I had no expectations.

It felt great having someone attracted to me and vice versa and it's funny I didn't know how much I missed it until I actually was experiencing it. I'm more confident in myself which is great. I also was seeing a therapist last year to help me with the dating game since I got too comfortable with not dating. I want to have relationships with the opposite sex who are not related to me. She noticed that I have issues with having confidence in my intelligence. When  describing myself I would say that I'm nice, good person, great listener, ethical, cute but I'd never say smart or intelligent. I have finally learned not to compare myself  physically with others and I need to learn to do that with my intelligence as well.

Baby steps I say. So the search continues and I'm excited to find him and I know its a journey not a race and that it'll take time and patience. I believe the right guy will be worth going through bad dates and such. I think I may take a week break looking at online profiles, its become a bit frustrating.

Hopefully I will be reporting on another date soon on my next post.

Til the next time.

- Loree

Smitten

Hello again, So as mentioned in my last blog that I'd state how my 3rd date with AT went. It was great! I saw one of my closest friends and her husband, who is part of a jazz band, was amazing. AT was sweet as well and walked me to my car after the performance. I gave him a ride to the metro and I'm freaking out because this is supposed to be our first kiss. So I park the car, he leans in and.....kisses me on the cheek? I then blurt out, and not sure where that courage came from but, "so was that our first kiss?" At the mention of this he leans in and kisses me on the lips. It was fast but nice. We then make plans to see each other again the following week.

So we do. I plan on meeting him near his job and we decide to have a drink and maybe do an art walk. He hadn't eaten since he went to the gym first and I already ate so I was hanging with him while he ate. It was nice we talked about his job and coworkers. Afterwards we go to a bar and I have THREE martini's and I was feeling good. He had two drinks -Campari, a strong Italian drink. Now we were planning on seeing a movie so trust me although I did drive down, I had no intention of driving home drunk. So we walk to the movie theater and I offered to buy the movie tickets but he goes ahead and does. Not sure if he was being chivalrous or if it was the alcohol or if he just wanted to but I thought that was sweet of him.

SIDEBAR:  I'm always confused on who pays when, when the relationship isn't official. 

Anyways, we go in the theater and sit in the back seat of the theater and totally make-out for the two hours. I felt like a teenager, and it was pretty awesome LOL. Afterwards he walks me to my car and we say we'll make plans again this week. 

I don't know about this guy. Like I said, I'm really attracted to him but I don't know what he wants. I'm going to try and think like a dude on this one for now and take it as we're just dating. I will not over-analyze like a girl automatically does. Although of course I have already :) Nothing serious, although with emotions you can't really control how you will decidedly feel about the other.

It's all about having fun for now...At least that's what I keep telling myself. We'll see...

Til the next time,

Loree