looking for a job has been so daunting. Working part-time for so long and having so much time to focus on myself has been amazing. I think I'm fearful of going back to full-time work because I fear of losing focus on my self and my health. I also can't seem to find a job outside of my previous type of work which was being an Executive Assistant. It's hard work and I honestly hate doing it now. I'm ready for something new. It really is a struggle to decide. I think by not working a 40 hour a week job I've been spoiled. It's been about 9 months since I've graduated and honestly I had that moment of looking for Executive Assistant/Administrative Assistant positions again and even had an interview but I just couldn't go after it. I JUST CAN'T! I told myself no more going backwards and that to me would be the definition of that. I got my bachelor's for goodness sake and I'd actually like to use it. I went to school for a reason to get out of the role of an EA and AA but its hard:1. Not having health insurance
2. Income to support myself and buy my own place
3. Savings for the future.
It sucks and I know I'm one of many people in this country going through the same dilemma. It is very hard. I think I need a vacation. I haven't been on a vacation in years and I think its' starting to get to me. Planning for a vacation with no money is going to be hard. But I'm a planner. I planned to get my Bachelor's and I did, I planned on losing weight and I happily accomplished that. So planning a vacation with low funds, I can do that too. And let's not forget about the love life.
Wow, my love life has been nonexistent for many years since the last terrible relationship I had in the past I just packed that part of my life in a drawer and just closed it. Now even though I don't have a job and can't really support myself I do want companionship SO...
I've started DATING, met a guy, younger than me which is o.k. for now since I haven't dating since I can't even remember and its really hard. He's sweet and I will just hang out with him for now. I do remind myself of the accomplishments I have made and that I am grateful to be in good health so its not all bad and honestly that's what gets me up in the morning. There are people out there going through tragedies that I can't even grasp. So...
Plan, I'm good at planning and the goal is to continue:
1) Dating
2) Planning a Vacation
3) Finding a steady job that I love
4) Supporting myself
A small list of HUGE proportions I know but I'll accomplish it. Til the next time...
- Loree
